If I were ever to attend a support group this is how I would introduce myself:
"Hi. My name is April, and I have OCD tendencies that involve touching/pulling at/out my eye lashes."
The first step is admitting I have a problem right?!? Ok so seriously I have a problem that involve my eyelashes. It started in high school when I started wearing mascara. The feeling of clumped eyelashes drove me crazy, so I would pick at the mascara until it was practically all off. Anyway, it became a habit and pretty soon I was messing with my lashes even when I didn't have make-up on.
Fast forward to present day. I wouldn't actually say it is obsessive or compulsive, but sometimes it feels like it because when I intentionally try to not to, my hands feel....anxious. And the second I stop thinking about not touching them...my fingers are at my eyeball...squishing/pulling/tugging at my eyelashes. My lashes literally have split ends because i mess with them so much. My theory is that they fall out easier because they are weaker, but the truth is sometimes I do pull them out. :/ Embarrassing. I don't really get mad at myself about it until I have gaps in my eye lash line.
If I ever end up with no eyelashes, you will know what happened. :)
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I just have to say that this post made me love you even more than I already did (and that is a LOT). :o)
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